“I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,

in secret, between the shadow and the soul.”

– Pablo Neruda

Terrance Miller, my grade seven English teacher, gave verse XVII from Pablo Neruda’s Morning Sonnets to our class to read and consider. In an effort to teach us to relate poetry back to our own twelve-year-old experiences, he asked us to write a small essay.

‘Describe what you think this poem is about. How does it make you feel?’

While Pablo’s words made my girlfriends think of the gangly, ball-cap-wearing boys on the playground, they made me think of someone I had never met.

“This poem makes me think of my father,” I wrote. “My mother took me from him. I don’t know him and I’m not supposed to love him but I secretly do. I think between the shadow and the soul means secretly.”

The assignment woke my inner poet.

Between the Shadow and the Soul, my debut collection, explores the theme of wanting things secretly, intensely and unapologetically. I’m still looking for a publisher, but in the interim, here is a small excerpt from my 50 page manuscript.



Even when hope goes out
I will still be searching
Leave your lighthouse lit
I’ll find you
A complete vessel
Or pieces in the water
Washing up on your shore
I’ll return to you
Never stop loving me
From all of the dark
Secret places
Where love is rendered
Hopeless, but enduring



This will burn forever
From first breath to last

No hope to guide it
No reason to help it

It will walk the streets
Against the wind
Though marked by fate

Growing wilder
Ever smoldering
From sunrise to sundown
From the core of the soul


Fueled by drippings
Of past incarnations
Open to the future
Embracing the past



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